Numb

i guess i never realized till now what it all meant

how fast things can fall away

and how truly blind i really am

everything that was something is nothing

everyone that meant anything is gone

and all that i can do is ponder.

this life is hard lived

and all these memories are scraping a scar on my heart

it feels like a dull blade has etched out an opening in my head

while life goes on in its innocent ignorant bliss

i hold the crumbling remains of my past

bounded by chains

gagged by the words of “lost love”

i cant feel anything

but the numbness of loneliness.

this new found serenity

this old broken heart

cannot beat its warmth

cannot feel the soothing touch of love

the way it caresses your very soul

i am all but dead inside

i gave up on everyone and everything

i just want to be left alone now

to be able to live out the remainder of my life

in an isolated prison of my memories

where i can scratch out past memories on the walls

so hang me by your words of meaning

and take this dagger from my back

let me crawl let me die

so i can get away from this reality

so i can get away from this void that i feel.

i no longer can love

i no longer can put up without happiness

i just want numbness

i just want fortitude

let me get my peace

let me reap the awards of a life in darkness

let me feel no pain

let me rot

i just want to disappear.  

by RazourWeed

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